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| Date of Birth | 6/2004 |
| Date of Death | 6/2004 |
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Kayleigh Carroll Shaw, stillborn 25 june 2004.
Kayleigh was the daughter of chris and judy shaw, she was their first child together. Kayleigh has a big sister Jessica and 2 baby brothers dougie and joshua.
I did'nt get to know my daughter, I had her inside me moving and kicking me for 7 and a half months then she just fell asleep. My mum took a liking to country and western music during my pregnancy much to my dislike but kayleigh seemed to love it and never stopped kicking when ever it was played. I suffer from endometriosis and thought I was unable to have children so when we discovered we were pregnant me and my husband chris were over the moon, chris really wanted a little girl so was made up when the scan confermed this. I think we bought out mothercare getting everything for our little princess, chris and his best friend martin did out our spare room for her it was all winnie the pooh , all ready for her 3 months before she was due we were that excited!
Then came June, we started out the begining of the month so happy getting married on the 4th only a small wedding with our very close family we only had a night away together and planned to have a big party the following week for all our family and friends at my mums pub, then sadly our close friend James tradilicly died, shortly after james funeral I began to feel unwell this carried on for a couple of days I phoned my midwife to tell her that I was unwell, being sick and could not feel the baby moving, my midwife put it down to me being upset from the death of james and the fact that I was being sick was giving the baby no energy. On wednesday the 23rd I woke up really not well my husband was in court sorting out weekend contact for his daughter jessica so I could not reach him, not knowing what to do with myself I went to my mums, my mum and my nanna were very worried about me said I looked like death warmed up and insisted I called the midwife out, I did and she arrived at my mums about 12.30. this was the 3rd day I had not felt my baby move.My midwife got her monitor out and started going round my belly to listen to the babies heart beat, she was unsure if she could hear the baby or was it my heart beat and after about 15 mins of trying she gave up and decided to send me to hospital for a scan, she told me to be prepared that maybe there was no heart beat I began to cry and she explained to my mum and nanna what was wrong. My mum got hold of chris he came home picked me up and we drove to Bangor to our hospital. I sat holding chris hand all the way there with my other hand i had my fingers crossed and was praying to myself that she was still alive, I kept trying to be positive telling my chris that everthing was going to be fine. We arived on the labour ward and the midwifes there could also find no heart beat so they sent me straight down for a scan, I remember walking into scan room 2 liying down on the bed, I was holding chris hand and the midwife that was looking after me was rubbing my leg, I found it very strange that they turned the screen away from me so I could'nt see my baby then the scan lady got up and walked out returning with another lady, they spoke to my midwife then she turned to me to tell me the worst news of my life, my baby girl had died! the rest of this day and the next couple of days are a blur to me really. The 25th. Me and chris arrived at ysbyty gwynedd at 8.30am I had my waters broke and my labour started, I was given pleanty of pain killers and was not feeling any pain so was compleatly shocked when at 12.30 I moved to get a drink and I gave birth to our baby girl! she was born in her sack, the midewifes took her to the next room to clean her up and dress her and bough her back to us in a lovely white satin dress and matching bonnet. I was'nt sad at all for the 2 hours we got to spend alone with our kayleigh, we took it in turn holding her cuddling her and taking loads and loads of pictures of our beautiful baby girl. my nanna had arranged for the familys undertaker to come and collect kayleigh from us at the hospital, infact it was his wife and daughter that came with a little white coffin. mrs owen picked kayleigh up out of the white satin moses basket and placed her in this white coffin with pink lining and took her to valley to their chapel of rest for us. As they walked out of the door with my baby girl that was when it hit me, that was all my plans, dreams, hopes my world taken from me, gone. We had to wait for a new coffin to arrive in for kayleigh as the one they had for her was far to big, we gave her photos of all the family, a teddy and a letter telling her all about her family. when kayleigh came home she went to her bedroom and we put her in her cot and played the winnie the pooh cot mobile to her over and over again. I had lost my dad in 1999 and I purchased the plot next to him at the time so thats were we decided kayleigh would go, next to her grandad so that she would not be alone. we had a small service in st patricts church, me and chris carried kayleigh into the church, and chris carried her out, it was somthing chris had to do for her. chris and martin lowered kayleigh down into the ground I cant even begin to describe how that felt standing there watching my baby disapearing into a dark cold hole, I was begging chris not to put her there I so despratly wanted to grab her and take her home to put her back in her cot and play winnie the pooh to her thats all that was going round and round in my head. then she was gone. that was the most painfull day of my life, its 2 and a half years now since we lost our daughter and have since had 2 lovely sons dougie 18 months and joshua 13 weeks but the pain is still the same as the day she died and my empty feeling inside is still there, I dont know if that will ever go or will the pain ease in time? we love and miss you so much kayleigh always and forever mummy and daddy xxxxx
The tiny rosebud God picked to bloom in Heaven.
The master gardener from heaven above
Planted a seed in the garden of Love,
And from it there grew a rosebud small
That never had time to open at all.
For God in his perfect and all-wise way
Chose this rose for his heavenly bouquet,
And great was the joy of this tiny rose
To be the one our Father chose
To leave earth’s garden
For one on high
where roses bloom always and never die.
So, while you can’t see your precious rose bloom,
You know the great gardener from the upper room
Is watching and tending this wee rose with care,
Tenderly touching each petal so fair.
So think of your darling with the angels above,
Secure and contented and surrounded with love,
And remember God blessed and enriched your lives too,
For in dying your darling brought heaven closer to you.
Helen Steiner Rice
Butterfly Wings
by Mary Ellen Quire
You saw her, didn’t you?
That brief flash of color
So bright and beautiful,
Fading as fast as she came.
With tiny little wings,
She fluttered into life,
Landing lightly on our hearts
Like fairy dust.
Then, as quick as the wind changes,
She was gone,
Soaring back to where she came,
Freed on butterfly wings.
Weep not for me
now that I have passed.
Remember the laughter, the affection
and the joy
not just the recent tears.
Cherish the memories,
our hopes and dreams.
Hold fast to the love that we shared.
Be happy with the time we spent together
and being anew.
For I am not really gone,
I am closer than ever before.
As the morning sun rises
and throughout the busy day...I am with you.
Until the setting sun disappears on the horizon
and we watch the day turn into night...I am here.
You may feel a faint breeze stir round your head, while you slumber
as I gently kiss your forehead, "Good night."
The stars that shine so brightly in my heavenly sky
help me watch over you and keep you from harm.
I am the wind in the trees
and the song of a bird.
I am moonbeams in a midnight sky
and a glorious rainbow after the storm.
I am morning dew
and freshly-fallen snow.
I am a butterfly flying overhead
and a puppy happily at play.
I am a smile on a stranger's face
a gentle touch
a warm embrace.
Listen to the wind for my message of love.
Watch the sun rise and set in the sky with me.
Feel my essence encircle you with warm memories.
Open your heart to know...I am not gone.
Reach deep into your soul...You will find me.
I am here.
Have no fear.
I am with you,
Always.
© 1998 Kirsti A. Dyer
(Angel scribe)
KAYLEIGH
Angels in heaven whisper
a new year dawns today
for all our heartbroken loved ones on earth
where we couldn't stay
we'll celebrate here in heaven
sending many blessings down
to the ones who gave all to love us
without any regrets or frowns
blessings to all we left behind
to us angels you were the special kind
© 2002-2003 Agnes Marshall
I know, my love, the time has come
I know, my love,
The time has come
To finally let you go.
I know you're gone,
I must move on
To walk this lonely road.
And yet it seems
You're still with me
Each movement that I make -
A guiding light,
Still burning bright
With each step that I take.
I can't forget,
I won't regret
The moments that we shared.
Your gentle face,
The loving ways
That showed how much you cared.
Right from the start,
You touched my heart,
You opened up my eyes.
You helped me see
What I could be,
That I could reach the skies.
Now I still find
You're on my mind,
Though you're so far away.
I know it's wrong,
I can't hold on,
It's time to find my way -
Without your love
To lift me up,
Sometimes it's hard to face.
But in my dreams
You're still with me,
A part I can't erase.
With each new day,
It doesn't fade,
It's lonely with you gone.
Memories
Keep haunting me,
And yet I must move on.
Perhaps in time
Someday I'll find
It doesn't hurt so much.
But I know now
Without a doubt,
I won't forget your love
author unknown
***** NIGHT NIGHT ANGEL *****
To See You Once Again
Josette Kerns
I wish with all my heart I could see you once more,
I would use that moment and time to tell you how
Much love my heart holds for you and I shall never
Close that door.
Life each and every day with out you keeps going on
Even if some days I do not wish it I know I am being
Selfish and maybe even wrong, but to see you just once
More I so very much long.
I try to remember all the loving and happy times we
Were granted to enjoy and share, I try to understand
And not cry but to see you once more even only for a
moment to let you know just how very much I do care.
I know that day will eventually come when its my turn
To this world to say goodbye, But until then I shall hold
your love close to my heart, and sometimes I shall break
Down and cry, and I will still ask the question why did you
have to die?
KAYLEIGH
Little Angel
TINY LITTLE HALO ♥♥♥
♥Tiny little fingers ♥
♥Tiny little toes ♥
♥Tiny rosebud lips of pink ♥
♥A miracle I know ♥
♥I couldn't wait to see you ♥
♥And hold you close to me ♥
♥But found, instead, that some things ♥
♥Are never meant to be ♥
♥Tiny little halo ♥
♥Above your tiny head I know that God has chosen you ♥
♥To be with him instead ♥
Shari ?
Time In A Bottle
Jim Croce
If I could save time in a bottle
The first thing that I'd like to do
Is to save every day
Till eternity passes away
Just to spend them with you.
If I could make days last forever
If words could make wishes come true
I'd save every day like a treasure and then
Again I would spend them with you.
If I had a box just for wishes
And dreams that had never come true
The box would be empty
Except for the memory
Of how they were answered by you
Kayleigh
When You feel Lonely
When a person you love passes away
Look to the night sky on a clear day.
The star that to you, appears to be bright,
Will be your loved one,
Looking upon you during the night.
The lights of heaven are what shows through
As your loved one watches all that you do.
When you feel lonely for the one that you love,
Look to the Heavens in the night sky above.
Author unknown
COMFORT
2 Cor. 1:3-5
Surrounded by friends
yet all alone
the one I loved
God has called home
the hugs of friends
helps ease the pain
and I know my loss
is my loved one's gain
but tears now flow
across my face
as I long for just
one more embrace
then comfort comes
and I see Christ's face
He hugs my loved one
and I feel God's grace.
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